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brooklyn_boy The strange thing was that Steve had never really been alone before. The closest he got was in DC with the small apartment and the ghosts of the past he kept close to him at all times. But even then, he had the Avengers. He had constant contact with Tony and the rest of the team. Missions to keep him occupied so that the moments with just his record player and books felt like a break more than stifling isolation. But now, after all that had happened?
Now he truly felt alone.
Europe had the unique ability to move forward in time while preserving the past in small isolated bubbles. Steve slipped into England at nightfall and trusted his new beard and darker hair to stop instant recognition from getting him arrested. He was a fugitive, after all. The only place he was truly safe now was Wakanda and he'd fled from that protection as soon as he could.
It wasn't ingratitude that had him running. It wasn't duty either although he used that as a convenient excuse. It was that ever since Bucky closed his eyes in the cryotube, Steve had felt an ache of loneliness open up inside of him and for the first time since waking up in the 21st century, he couldn't figure out how to handle it.
The feeling was unfair to Nat and Sam. Both of them were around more than they weren't and were there for him in a way that was complicated and profound. They both had turned their back on so much to stand at his side. But Nat had her own missions to disappear on and Sam had a family he couldn't reach that tore him up inside. And Steve? The only family he'd ever known here was once more locked away. Close enough to touch and yet still inaccessible. Failed yet again by Steve who tried so hard to protect his best friend and came up short.
Too slow to grab his hand. Too late to save his mind. Too weak to keep him safe. Forever destined, it seemed, to say goodbye and be left behind.
To be alone.
And so he ran. He ran back to one of those bubbles in time that England had. A bar made, destroyed, and then rebuilt on the same ground like a phoenix rising. The place where he and Bucky had drank a beer and started their journey into the war. Where Bucky had looked at a six-foot man brimming with muscles and had seen a little guy from Brooklyn where he'd always been. And where Steve had gone back to mourn that first time he'd lost Bucky two days before he died himself.
Steve wasn't sure why he needed to be there. He just did. At this time of day it was closed and dark which fit his mood well enough. Nat had taught him how to get into such places unseen and when he did, the past pushed against him like a too-tight hug. It was comforting and suffocating all at the same time and the choked out sob bubbled up before he could stop it. He wanted to go <i>back</i>. Back to the war when things were so much simpler. Back to the days when he knew who he was and what role he had to play. Back when he had Bucky and wasn't so <i>alone</i>, even in a crowd.
He walked to the counter and it was new and not when his hands fell on it. It looked the same as where he and Bucky sat. New wood made with old designs; the attempt to make things the way they'd always been and getting as close as you could while still falling short. His nails scratched against the wood as they curled into fists, body bowing over the spot like he were praying. Perhaps he was. For what though, he couldn't say.
Steve's head lifted up and red eyes looked at the bar, desperate for a drink. There was a row of items there from the time the bar was destroyed. Trinkets and antiques left behind after the bombings and the bloodshed. Steve walked behind and let his fingertips brush over them, remembering when they had been new. Mugs. Buttons. Medals. And there, at the end, something different. Something brighter than the rest. Something old and new at the same time that called him back in a way he couldn't explain.
Steve reached for it, unsure of what it was or why it seemed so important. But it did. And as his fingertips stroked over it, the burst of nostalgia that came over him was enough to bring him to his knees. Like he was touching the past. Bridging the gap.
If only such a thing could be done...
Now he truly felt alone.
Europe had the unique ability to move forward in time while preserving the past in small isolated bubbles. Steve slipped into England at nightfall and trusted his new beard and darker hair to stop instant recognition from getting him arrested. He was a fugitive, after all. The only place he was truly safe now was Wakanda and he'd fled from that protection as soon as he could.
It wasn't ingratitude that had him running. It wasn't duty either although he used that as a convenient excuse. It was that ever since Bucky closed his eyes in the cryotube, Steve had felt an ache of loneliness open up inside of him and for the first time since waking up in the 21st century, he couldn't figure out how to handle it.
The feeling was unfair to Nat and Sam. Both of them were around more than they weren't and were there for him in a way that was complicated and profound. They both had turned their back on so much to stand at his side. But Nat had her own missions to disappear on and Sam had a family he couldn't reach that tore him up inside. And Steve? The only family he'd ever known here was once more locked away. Close enough to touch and yet still inaccessible. Failed yet again by Steve who tried so hard to protect his best friend and came up short.
Too slow to grab his hand. Too late to save his mind. Too weak to keep him safe. Forever destined, it seemed, to say goodbye and be left behind.
To be alone.
And so he ran. He ran back to one of those bubbles in time that England had. A bar made, destroyed, and then rebuilt on the same ground like a phoenix rising. The place where he and Bucky had drank a beer and started their journey into the war. Where Bucky had looked at a six-foot man brimming with muscles and had seen a little guy from Brooklyn where he'd always been. And where Steve had gone back to mourn that first time he'd lost Bucky two days before he died himself.
Steve wasn't sure why he needed to be there. He just did. At this time of day it was closed and dark which fit his mood well enough. Nat had taught him how to get into such places unseen and when he did, the past pushed against him like a too-tight hug. It was comforting and suffocating all at the same time and the choked out sob bubbled up before he could stop it. He wanted to go <i>back</i>. Back to the war when things were so much simpler. Back to the days when he knew who he was and what role he had to play. Back when he had Bucky and wasn't so <i>alone</i>, even in a crowd.
He walked to the counter and it was new and not when his hands fell on it. It looked the same as where he and Bucky sat. New wood made with old designs; the attempt to make things the way they'd always been and getting as close as you could while still falling short. His nails scratched against the wood as they curled into fists, body bowing over the spot like he were praying. Perhaps he was. For what though, he couldn't say.
Steve's head lifted up and red eyes looked at the bar, desperate for a drink. There was a row of items there from the time the bar was destroyed. Trinkets and antiques left behind after the bombings and the bloodshed. Steve walked behind and let his fingertips brush over them, remembering when they had been new. Mugs. Buttons. Medals. And there, at the end, something different. Something brighter than the rest. Something old and new at the same time that called him back in a way he couldn't explain.
Steve reached for it, unsure of what it was or why it seemed so important. But it did. And as his fingertips stroked over it, the burst of nostalgia that came over him was enough to bring him to his knees. Like he was touching the past. Bridging the gap.
If only such a thing could be done...
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Date: 2022-04-30 08:23 pm (UTC)By the time he's looking down at his cock and clearly ready to make a bad call, Steve is too far gone to question it. Bucky was usually the voice of reason in things. When he's on team 'stupid ideas', all bets were off.
"I haven't," Steve answers, using his enhanced mind in a way Erskine definitely couldn't have predicted. He glances as the precome between them and wipes it with his fingers, getting the first one especially covered. "But I have a pretty good imagination and the internet. So helpful..."
His mind races. There were a few options open to them but none of them are especially great. One, however, is a good deal more fun, though. Steve definitely does not watch porn. But if he did, this would maybe be something he's seen done. Once or twice. If he did, which he doesn't. And with that, he settles next to Bucky with a smile. His teeth press into the shell of his ear and his slicker hand reaches with purpose for Bucky's cock. He moans an exhale as though feeling the pleasure himself as he grips him tight and starts stroking with steady rhythm.
Star-Spangled Man with a Plan.
"The goals here are to get you relaxed... and also to maybe get something... to help us along." Steve rubs his thumb over the head of Bucky's cock to emphasize what he means without outright saying it. He smiles as that one hand keeps moving but now starts going a bit faster. "I can think of one really good way to get both of those in one fell-swoop. And with all the shit the serum gives us, we might as well take advantage of one of the main perks." He has no idea if Bucky's figured out his refractory period is pretty much set to 'teenager in shower'. If not, it's a good enough time and way to learn.
Steve kisses along Bucky's neck and rubs the roughness of his beard against it. His hand twists over the head of Bucky's cock, demanding and impatient as he always is. The free one reaches up, knowing better now the moves that seem to get Bucky's motor running hotter. Steve figures he's got his friend's number as he grabs his hair and pulls on it tight, drawing his ear against his mouth. Holding it there without mercy as he husks against his ear:
"Come for me, Buck. That's an order..."
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Date: 2022-05-01 11:22 pm (UTC)Bucky’s cock jerks against Steve’s, the blunt head stroking up along Steve’s shaft as he rocks upwards like Steve’s pulling the strings when Steve swipes at the precome there to smear it on his fingers.
“The hell’s the ‘internet’ - oh hell -” Bucky has to cut himself off, because it’s not only easy to picture Steve with the imagination to dream up anything once he got in the mood, but maybe…maybe jerking himself off to all kinds of fantasies when Bucky was out on dates and Steve had the apartment all to himself. Steve settles down next to him like a powerful grace pressed in a long line next to him, taking Bucky’s place with a strong hand curled around his cock and teeth teasing at the curve of Bucky’s ear. Bucky wets his lip with a hint of pink tongue. “Jesus, look at you. You’re like a living wet dream. You always been this filthy even way back?”
With a sigh, Bucky curls around Steve, a leg drawn up and over his hip to drag him in close as he presses slow, searching kisses while Steve works him over; nice and firm, no pussy-footing here, no sir. Bucky’s hands frame Steve’s hips, then pet down along his flanks and curl over the curve of Steve’s ass as he rocks upwards to nudge the head of his cock along Steve’s thumb, rocking and rocking as Steve works him over like he’s got a mission.
“Perks? Like - ah - what?” Bucky’s makes a choked off sound as he arches his throat, tensing at the scrape of beard and yet asking for more as his cock lurches and his hips begin to work more greedily, more gracelessly up into Steve’s grip, the filthy sounds of slick flesh meeting slick flesh filling the place. God, it’s not easy to remember how words are supposed to go together when Steve’s hand jerks his head to the side and his lips brush hot against his ear as he fucking has to breath out an order in that Captain America voice that gets everyone to drop what they’re doing and feel some good old American rah-rah no matter how beat you were.
God. Steve telling him how it’s gonna go does things to him. The sound that comes dragged out of Bucky is shameful; he strangles out a harsh groan, nails digging into the meat of Steve’s ass as his eyes flutter shut and he pulses his hips into Steve’s grip, toes curling as he chases after that finish line with all the single-mindedness of a man who hasn’t had a real release in months. One last jab hard into Steve’s grip and Bucky grunts as his cock throbs and he begins to shoot, smearing ropes of white along Steve’s grip and cock between them.
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Date: 2022-05-02 01:21 pm (UTC)He's kissing Bucky before he's even finished, tasting the sounds of his climax as they fall from his lips. It's the most alive he's felt in weeks.
"Jesus fucking Christ, that was amazing..."
And it's not over.
Steve is smiling and kissing Bucky as his soiled hand drifts between his legs and starts probing at his opening. With the additional slick and the relaxation post orgasm, it's almost easy to slip a finger inside. He does so slowly and as gentle as possible. Bucky has to be sensitive and even with the serum he'll need a second before his body gears up for round two.
Still, selfishly, he wants this so badly that he can't help but be impatient. He slides the finger in and out as slow as he can while pressing soft kisses to Bucky's cheeks and neck. He wants more. He needs more. But he needs this to be good for both of them and to see that incredible moment of pleasure on his friend's face.
So. Slow. Fine. He can do that.
"The perks are gonna make themselves known pretty fast. But let me know if you're feelin' bad..." His accent breaks loose with his arousal. "We have all night..."
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Date: 2022-05-03 04:35 am (UTC)Bucky’s lips are still parted on the trailing edge of a groan when Steve crushes their lips together; Bucky’s gasp hitches into something ragged at the edges, hsi arms going to wind around Steve’s neck, nails digging into his shoulder-blades as his tongue pushes between Steve’s lips, still hungry for him even as Steve wrings a a load out of him. At last, Steve milks him dry, and Bucky finds himself start to relax into the bed like something’s finally told him he’s allowed.
“Always figured you’d be aces. Comes with those clever hands, Rogers,” Bucky manages, and then he pants into Steve’s lower lip, teeth dragging against the satiny skin inside for a moment as he has to focus. “Oh shit, wow…”
Bucky’s knees dig into Steve for a moment, as a slick, slick finger slips down to tease between his cheeks; no one’s ever done that before - certainly not any of the dolls he dated - and it leaves Bucky suddenly focused the the press of a finger that turns into Steve breaching him. Bucky’s eyes flutter and close, as he worries at his lower lip, as the new sensations build on each other; Steve opening him up, feeling full in a way he hasn’t been before, and Steve being so, so careful to take it slow, but after coming, it’s this side of too much.
Bucky’s nails press pink indents into the meat of Steve’s shoulders as he ducks his head against the crook between Steve’s shoulders and neck, looking down because he has to look, he’s gotta, at Steve’s hand between his legs, thrusting slowly as Bucky carefully, cautiously rocks back on his finger, slowly taking him in deeper.
“All night, huh? Talk about finding a way to make up for lost time,” Bucky grunts, as he’s managed to take Steve all the way up to the knuckle. He’s softened a little after coming, but weirdly enough, not all the way. He’s hovering at half-hard, like his dick’s planning on sticking with this show through sheer pigheadedness. “You’re telling me I’m not out for the count? How the hell did you find that out?”
With who? Bucky wants to ask, but doesn’t.
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Date: 2022-05-03 05:25 pm (UTC)"I found that out the same way I found out how to do this..."
Steve pushes his finger in a little deeper just to finish the sentence.
"I did a lot of research on my own. And one night I decided to just...test the limits. They go pretty far." And had actually regretted it the next day. His personal best seemed to hover around five and a half but by the end he was very much not enjoying it anymore. Frankly, after the third time the distinction between pain and pleasure started to get blurry. But two? Yeah. Two is still pretty swell.
He kisses Bucky soft and almost playfully as he continues to fuck him on that one finger. He's more relaxed after an orgasm but he's also more sensitive and Steve needs to toe that line before he does something that crosses it. So it's a little bit before he pulls free and slicks up a second finger. Just to be prepared. Just to test and slowly introduce as little as possible at a time.
The whole time he stays over Bucky, kissing him and nipping against his jaw in equal measure. Worshiping the body below him as he always wanted to, deep down. Steve himself is still hard and grinds now and then against Bucky's leg just for friction, but his attention is solely on the other man. His best friend and other half of his soul.
Steve breaks the kiss and just looks down at him, awed and completely besotted.
"Don't let me hurt you, Buck. Okay? I don't want that. This is already the best night of my whole life and I don't need a goddamn thing else. So please...don't let me do that to you."
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Date: 2022-05-04 04:13 am (UTC)A tiny thread of tension had started to sneak in anyway at the foreign sensation, but it bleeds right back out as Steve answers. Bucky’s body relaxes, welcomes Steve in deeper as Bucky’s caught between a gasp and a laugh that’s a little relieved. A little selfish even, ‘cause it means he hasn’t fooled around with anyone else.
“Research! Is that what we’re calling it these days?” Bucky husks out a laugh, tinged with arousal; God, that’s hot. Steve toying with himself, seeing how long he’d last or how quick he could sneak one in before someone caught him. Maybe even did this back home, while Bucky was out. "Nice to know neither of us are down for the count."
Bucky can’t remember the last time he had Steve to himself. People actually noticed Steve after Rebirth, even before he became a real Cap. And with the Commandos formed, Steve’s busy answering to the brass and the rest of his dance card is filled with obligations to the missions and the unit. Besides, it’s not the best kinda look when he and Captain Rogers are friends; there’s been rumblings here and there it’s favoritism, so Bucky’s careful to keep it mostly professional when they’re in camp. Just feels a little like what they had back home was dead and buried.
Now Steve’s voice is pitched low between them with a husky, deep chuckle like it’s a secret just for the two of them, and a part of Bucky’s heart sings as he smiles back up at Steve… even though Bucky can’t help the feeling this is like a last hurrah for him, before he goes back to the War waiting to put him six-feet under. But at least I got this, Bucky thinks, as he rocks gently on Steve’s finger and presses kiss after kiss, his mouth going slack on a whisper of a gasp when Steve slowly nudges in another finger and leaves little nips down along his throat. He goes in easier this time, stretching him open even more while Bucky curls his knee up against him to open himself up for Steve even more, as if in silent offering.
Bucky’s hand sinks lower to curl gently around Steve’s balls, massaging them as he traces his lips along Steve’s jaw. “You’re never gonna hurt me, pal. I followed you everywhere, even back into the War. I trust you.”
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Date: 2022-05-05 12:12 am (UTC)He can't think about it. He can't let those thoughts rise up because if they do he'll drown in them. He'll drown right here in this bed and God help him, he might not surface in one piece. Let alone what that would do to Bucky.
He moves his hand a bit faster and inexpertly shifts and curls his fingers. Academically he knows what he's supposed to do in this situation but locating the prostate on a helpful internet article diagram is vastly different from real life practice. Still, he's got the idea of it and enough room to trust he's not causing Bucky pain while he tries. In the meantime, he chases after Bucky's mouth the next time it crosses near his own and kisses him hard.
No more of that topic.
"Tell me how you feel," he asks instead, treading onto safer ground. "First time being put through your paces. We can stop anytime or speed it up. You set the pace on this, Buck."
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Date: 2022-05-06 03:50 am (UTC)“You want to hear how nice your cock feels? Or this?” Bucky’s mouth quirks into a smirk, the kind that’s always spelled out being stupid just to annoy Steve, as he gently kneads and traces along the shape of Steve’s balls, just to feel the soft skin shifting along them, before tracing circled fingers along the vein tracing along the underside of his dick. ‘Course that’s not what Steve’s talking about, but when Bucky’s got Steve all to himself, can you blame him? His other hand flattens along Steve’s chest, thumb skating around a nipple as if tracing it’s own little perimeter. “Or this?”
Bucky lets his head fall back on the mussed up sheets, sucking his lower lip between his teeth as he obliges Steve (in what he’s actually asking), gently rolling his hips to try and take Steve in deeper even as he feels the faint, stinging stretch of two fingers working him open. Stretching him. Sinking in easier each time as his cock gets harder and harder again with each second, and Bucky crushes his lips against Steve’s.
Bucky’s eye burrows furrow. God, where to start? Bucky thinks as he begins to tease at the tawny nub under his thumb, and pumping Steve’s cock in nice, long, firm drags. “No way am I crying uncle. It’s just taking getting used to, that’s-”
Bucky doesn’t quite finish, ‘cause suddenly it’s like someone sent up a bolt of fireworks right through his veins: it’s a burst of fiery arousal so fierce that Bucky cries out, arching on Steve’s fingers when they curl and press against something inside him that feels so, so fucking go that it feels like he just might come any second, over and over as Bucky nearly bits Steve’s lip with the shock. Bucky’s eyes have gone wide, staring at Steve in shock as he’s dick’s practically lept right to attention. “...The hell was that?!”
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Date: 2022-05-08 12:54 am (UTC)"That is what makes all of this really worthwhile," Steve says glibly, kissing Bucky just a bit while the rest of him focuses on what he's doing below. He's erect again which is helpful. Steve ignores it for the moment as he works on that gentle stretching, trying to get back to the spot that had caused so much pleasure.
"Just... If you keep relaxing, I can make sure that we give it the attention it needs." He says that as though this isn't his first time and like he's not promising a filet mignon on a hamburger budget. Still, he can't help himself. He wants this to be good. He wants Bucky to feel good and for him to maybe make up for even a fraction of the pain that he's going to cause him.
Steve will work all night if that is even slightly possible.
"Don't worry about me," he murmurs as he gets deep enough to try and replicate what he'd done before. "I'm fine. This.... I want this to be about you. How you feel... Just tell me about that."
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Date: 2022-05-10 03:02 am (UTC)The only reason he doesn’t end up losing it all of a sudden is ‘cause Steve pulls back right off that spot and lets him have a breather - that and the fact Bucky’s just barely managed to squeeze himself at the base of his cock when Steve works in a third finger. Bucky’s hips rock upwards, cock bobbing as his knee knocks into Steve’s ribs as he’s stretched open in a slide that’s just the perfect amount of stinging to go with the pleasure.
Bucky’s fingers tangle with Steve’s as he grips tight like he needs the anchor as Steve works him carefully open on three fingers, teasing that spot inside him that has precome already pearling up along the head of his cock and his dick rock-hard and jutting hungrily upwards like he hadn’t just come within the last hour. He’s not sure he trusts himself not to squeeze Steve too hard, so Bucky settles for curling his fingers in Steve’s hair and dragging him down into breathless kiss after kiss, as he drives himself deeper on Steve’s fingers, choking off a moan now and then as he finds that spot.
“I just…I feel so fucking full,” Bucky manages to groan, “But kinda like I’m gonna come over and over.”
It’s when Steve’s fingers press and hold against that spot inside him that Bucky’s limbs tremble with the effort it’s taking not to embarrass himself, blow it early. His thigh shifts up to press against Steve's cock, to feel the thick heat there. “I don’t know how I’m gonna last long if you’re gonna play dirty like that.”
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Date: 2022-05-11 12:52 am (UTC)For being the guy running the show so far, he's strangely shyer now. His hands even shake a little as he makes sure he's slick enough for the next step. As he tries to figure out the right position to not cause either of them discomfort. Sadly, there hadn't been as many helpful diagrams for this part.
Still, he has a general idea. Steve kisses Bucky as he encourages his legs just a bit wider. He lets them cage him in as he pets and caresses Bucky, accomplishing the secondary goal of lining himself up. It is easy enough from there to push forward. Steve presses their foreheads together, panting already as he feels nothing but resistance from the other body before the slow, gradual give.
"I don't know how long I'm gonna last either, Buck," he confesses quietly. Inch by inch he slips in, pausing for the other man to adjust or call for a pause. The tight heat is better than he'd even thought it would be and that's a problem since he already knew he was in trouble before that. Steve chokes out a laugh that almost sounds like a sob. When he kisses Bucky it's more tender than he means it to be but not nearly as tender as he wants.
God, he loves him. He loves him so, so much.
The truth of that thought is like a strike on lightning through Steve's mind, but the kind of strike that would come in the middle of a storm, next to a metal rod. It's not really that surprising for all that it is still spectacular and awesome in a nearly biblical sense. Steve knew that it was likely. He knew that it was even just a matter of time for it to strike and light up his entire world.
He knew that after it happened, there would be unimaginable damage left in its wake. But what could he do? He was already dancing in the rain with a key strapped on a kite when he'd figured it all out. And now it is just truly too late.
Steve swallows it back into the bottomless pit of all the other things he waited too long to say and focuses instead on the moment he has. On Bucky. And with one more kiss, he pushes in even more, trembling with all he's feeling.
"Jesus," he breathes finally, voice hoarse for some reason. "Oh... God... This... You. Yeah... I ain't gonna last long at all..."
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Date: 2022-05-11 03:09 am (UTC)(Okay, it’s first for Bucky too, but he likes to think he’s pretty good at everything else in the sack, and some of it’s gotta transfer over. Right?)
Bucky’s sure as hell going to pretend like he doesn’t catch the tremor in Steve’s hands; look, he’s got manners. Even with his best friend. Still, something smug and dark settles in Bucky’s gut at the thought that he’s the first to see Steve like this. Have him like this, in a way that even fucking Uncle Sam and everybody and their mother never will. It’s ugly and green, but Bucky’s hands slows though, just a second, as he’s caught with the sight of Steve’s hand wrapped around his thick cock as he urges Bucky’s legs open and Bucky gently places soft nips from one corner of Steve’s lips to the other. Bucky lets his thighs fall open like a dream come true, slow and maybe a little showy that comes with the territory of knowing you got an audience and knowing most folks think you don’t have a single bad side.
Bucky sucks in a sharp, sudden gasp as a thick head nudges up against his hole; blunt, warm and slick… hard and so eager. Bucky’s grips at the span of muscle between Steve’s neck and shoulder, a little too tightly as their foreheads press together and he stares down between them at the sight of Steve’s shaft aimed right between his legs like a breath held between them. It’s a little like looking over the edge of a ‘coaster and then…
Bucky’s neck arches, head tilted back on a steady stream of low, guttural swears that’d get even the toughest drill Sarge blushing as he’s breached. Bucky’s arms drag Steve in closer as they circle his shoulders, clutching him tight as he’s opened by a thick shaft that’s a helluva lot bigger than three fingers. It’s like nothing he’s ever felt before. Bucky’s dimly aware he’s nodding to something Steve’s saying, but it’s hard to focus on anything but every single inch his body’s swallowing up. Bucky doesn’t once tap out, only he swallows hard, closes his eyes and pants as he tries to force himself to relax, even when his body instinctively tries to tense up, squeezing on the dick pushing inside.
“Don’t you dare, Rogers,” ” Bucky pants as he captures Steve's lips. It's sloppy and distracted for a kiss; even as Bucky’s attention is all on Steve’s cock impaling him and the dirty little sob that comes outta Steve, his own dick’s practically drooling at the pleasure-ache as Steve’s cock fills him. Bucky’s heel digs into Steve’s lower back, his hand gripping at Steve’s ass just to feel the way the muscles flex as he squeezes.
“God, you’re nearly all the way in,” Bucky whimpers, and just because he’s gotta always test things, arches his spine, braces with his other foot to try and sink Steve in deeper. Can he take him all the way to the hilt? All Bucky knows is he wants to feel Steve’s weight against him, wants all that Steve’s got for him. “What happened to Mr. I-Could-Do-This-All-Day?”
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Date: 2022-05-12 09:46 pm (UTC)Steve is smiling though. He definitely hasn't learned that lesson even in the slightest but it's familiar and comforting to do the call and response game again. With all that had happened, Steve's almost forgotten the natural way they fit together. Not like this, clearly, although the fit now is exception as well. No, just how they fell into step. Like the fight with Tony. Like running through the airport and communicating with a look.
Bucky doesn't complete him so much as he is that last, completing piece of the Steve Rogers puzzle. Without it you get most of the picture but it's always lacking. Always less than it could be if only someone gave it what it needed.
As Bucky arches, Steve trails kisses from neck to navel. The awkward position has him pulling out just a bit but there isn't time to grieve that. Not when Steve straightens back up and makes that final thrust. And like magic, Steve is connected with Bucky more intimately than he ever has been before. He pants hard, shocked by what he's done even though he definitely shouldn't be. The feeling is beyond words and Steve just stares at Bucky in awe.
And then, yeah. Okay. Biology screams that he should move and that sounds like a really good idea.
"I'm...I'm inside you," he breathes as he pulls back and inexpertly thrusts back. With the way slick now, it's smooth and hot and easy to get as deep as he wants. Steve's memory provides the place his fingers had hit before and it is different trying to find it with a different appendage, but he's trying. Trying with each slow thrust and small adjustment.
And between that, he bends completely over Bucky to share his air and pepper kisses whenever their faces bump close enough.
"Jesus... I...I get the appeal now," he says with an airy laugh that breaks into a moan. "Oh...God, Buck..."
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Date: 2022-05-14 01:35 am (UTC)Bucky’s stomach twitches under the lips trailing down along it. Here he’d figure this was Steve’s first time, figure he’d probably snap right inside, but Steve’s so ridiculously slow and tender that Bucky’s heart just doesn’t know what to do with it as he watches Steve treat him like he’s not some busted shell of a GI.
Gun-calloused fingers stroke along Steve’s temple, then brush back the stray bangs before carding through his hair as Steve sinks lower and lower; far more flexible than he ever was before the War. The movement slides his dick out just a little, leaving something in Bucky aching a little to get filled. Like they’re answering a call, Bucky’s hips jerk to try and get him back deeper, back to pushing in so deep that it’s anyone’s guess where he and Steve begin.
And just like that, Steve rocks forward to sink right in with such a deep, decisive thrust that it rips a raw groan from Bucky’s throat. Like a string pulled, Bucky’s body bows upwards to drive his own aching cock against Steve’s stomach in a hot line against the muscles there.
“I know. Feels aces, huh?,” Bucky breathes out, hushed like it’s a secret between them, looking down the length of their bodies with dark, hungry eyes, his cock throbbing at the sight; Steve’s pressed balls deep against him, completely impaling him. A little shimmy and he’s gasping all over again, feeling the shaft opening him up and nudging tantalizing close against that spot inside him. Both hands settle below Steve’s ass - okay fine, he really likes feeling the play of muscle as Steve begins to figure out how the thrusting thing works, to wordlessly help him find a rhythm as Steve rains kisses on him like he can’t bear to be apart.
His toes curl as Steve slides back in, nice and slow and deep, with Bucky angling his hips upwards and bearing down just to tighten around Steve. Teeth catch at Steve’s earlobe. “Fuck, you’re big. You always packing this heat?”
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Date: 2022-05-14 02:53 am (UTC)Bucky tightens around him over and over again which is incredible and also really annoying. Steve is recalling every nun he had as a teacher from first to eighth grade just to not blow it completely the first time. Even with Sister Bruna and her hairy mole, it's a close call when Bucky bites his earlobe. Apparently that is something he likes a lot. Look at this: learning opportunities.
Steve hums to swallow a guttural noise threatening to erupt out. It almost sounds like a purr that way which isn't exactly wrong.
"Nah... This is... just my Tuesday equipment."
Steve grins down at Bucky, proud that he was able to think of a joke right now. That smugness doesn't last too long though as his hips snap forward with a burst of biological impatience and he decides, yeah. Yeah, that is a real good way to do this, too.
The pace picks up, bed squeaking faster and louder as an erotic accompaniment to the sounds of moans and smacking flesh. Steve rests his forehead against Bucky's, eyes closed as he drinks in this feeling. As he tries to memorize every single feeling and sense experience, in case this is the only time he will ever have this.
The next sound out of him is a sharper cry. His breathing goes uneven and shallow as the peak comes into view.
"God, Bucky..." his voice is softer than he means it to be. "Oh...oh God. You... You're so incredible. So amazing."
'I love you,' he thinks but doesn't say. Although he's not entirely sure it's not written all over his face all the same.
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Date: 2022-05-15 05:36 pm (UTC)That squeezes another laughter-tinged with a moan from Bucky. Bucky’s eyes squeeze closed as he’s gotta sink his teeth into his knuckles as he ends up clenching tight all over Steve again like a vice. His other hand squeezes hard on Steve’s ass since he can’t punch his shoulder just then for that crack; “Fucking hell, you bastard, you gotta - you gotta stop making me laugh.”
Trust Steve Rogers to somehow still find a way to be a real wise-guy even when he’s got his dick buried deep inside him, and yet it’s so right, because it’s still them. Like this is just a natural continuation of how things’ve been between them if one of them took the first leap, and it feels like nothing’s changed for the worse between them or got weird. (Or maybe it would be with his Steve - if Bucky wasn’t a coward, but in this moment, Buck’yll pretend he’s having this with the one back home too).
Steve’s starting to find that spot inside him again, and it’s even better with the heavy weight of his cock sliding against him as he spears Bucky open. Bucky’s face turns so he can press kisses to the inside of Steve’s wrist braced near his head as the bed rocks under them both and Bucky rolls his hips upwards just to feel the full slide as Steve’s cock snaps back in with a throaty groan. Steve might’ve never made time with someone before, but hell if he’s not a quick learner.
Bucky pulls him down into a searing, fierce kiss as they move together and the springs squeal under them with each smack of Steve’s hips against his. Steve isn’t looking to treat him with the kid gloves, and hell, if he’s not loving it more than he ever thought he would. A sheen of sweat glistens along Bucky’s skin as he clutches tight at Steve like he’s not planning on letting him up short of a shelling or something, nails dragging welts down his back as he rocks up over and over to take whatever Steve’ll let him have while his cock drools between them.
Bucky breathes hard into Steve’s lips as that gorgeous cry squeezes out and Bucky circles his hips on his cock seated deep inside with a hiss escaping between grit teeth. They’re both trembling together, so close to blowing it that Bucky’s making a mess between them and his balls ache.
“It’s always been you, Steve.” Steve doesn’t gotta say it. Bucky’s hands smooth along the stinging tracks to cup Steve’s jaw, beard scratching against his palm as he presses kisses, tender, lighter, slower than the pounding between them. The headboard smacks into the wall, wearing at the paint. “It’s always been. Why do you think I followed you through thick and thin?”
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Date: 2022-05-15 06:01 pm (UTC)Like a true sap, Bucky whispers sweet words between them and that, more than the clenching and the moving and the arching has Steve tumbling over the edge. It's always been him, Bucky had said. It had always been him and for Steve, it had always been Bucky. Always and forever and God, he loves this man so much. Too much, probably. But there's nothing for it at this point. Nothing to do but let it sear him from the inside out.
"Oh, Bucky..." The moan is a sob as Steve pushes in hard and comes hard enough to lose his vision. Everything is electricity. Lightning hitting him and setting the contact areas on fire. His body pulses with it, each one almost painful with how intense it is. But it's good. It's so, so good. Steve gasps his air as the waves go through him and leave him, at the end, completely spent.
He keeps thrusting, slower and more gently to make sure he's taking care of Bucky, still. His arms are shaking where they hold him up and his entire body is tingling. Part of him is wondering how much of that is inherent just to sex and how much is more specifically due to sex with Bucky. It's a mystery he doesn't actually want solved since he's satisfied to live in ignorance and only have Bucky beneath him for the rest of his life.
Of course that is almost definitely not going to be a possibility, but he can dream.
"Always you," he concurs, the kisses so gentle now. And, fuck it. Why not? Why not when he has so little and so much to lose at the same time? When else will he get the chance?
"I love you..."
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Date: 2022-05-16 12:04 am (UTC)Turns out, it’s not long. Just like everywhere else, Bucky follows in Steve’s footsteps.
“Steve-” Bucky groans, raw and filthy as everything crests and snaps as Steve’s cock throbs deep inside him in a burst of liquid heat, and just like that, Bucky’s a goner. Under Steve, Bucky’s spine arches upwards in a serpentine writhe before he stiffens under Steve, before his cock jerks and his balls draw up tight as his ass spasms around Steve. Seed splashes between them, paints their skins as Bucky gasps and grinds out several last, helpless thrusts before he sags under Steve, whimpering as he twitches his cock between them to smear the last few drops into Steve’s skin as Steve buries himself several more time before he finally stills.
Bucky’s chest heaves as he wipes at the sweat beaded out at his temple, as he gently peppers Steve’s jaw and the arch of one cheek with a trail of soft kisses, curling a leg along Steve’s waist while the other sags towards the sheets.
“Love you too, pal.,” Bucky murmurs, pressing a kiss to the corner of Steve’s lips. “I know I never really said it but…I do. Maybe I should’ve said something earlier. When we had time.”
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Date: 2022-05-16 02:06 am (UTC)His heart soars with the words Bucky says against his lips. Gently, Steve eases his way free of Bucky's body so he can lay beside him. Pull the man into his arms and just relish the afterglow. They're completely filthy and Bucky is probably sore, but that is things they can deal with another time. Sometime after, when the sun is up and Steve can watch dawn rise along the hills and shadows of Bucky's face.
He kisses the tip of Bucky's nose and then his lips. No rush. No desperation. Nothing but love pouring out of him and into the heart he'd given his best friend so long ago, never to reclaim. This close Steve can feel it beat. He closes his eyes to enjoy it as anyone would with a musical masterpiece.
"We have time, now," Steve says. He opens his eyes and finds Bucky's. With everything that's changed, those were the same eyes that looked back at him before they closed inside a cryotube. And maybe, just maybe, that meant they had time in the future, too.
He can't hope. Hope is the way to a broken heart. But he can wait. Lord knows he's good enough at that. He can wait and see what the future has in store for them both. And right now he can just enjoy what it has given him here.
Steve kisses Bucky again, taking his time with it. Rolling onto his back and pulling Bucky closer to change their position. Another drawing he'll need to do to add to his growing list.
"You could say it," he whispers between them, caring nothing for what this might do to the past or the future or anything else. "You could tell me anytime you want because I know that I loved you in back alley fights and smokey dance halls and in army tents...just as much as I love you here and now. There's never been a time I didn't love you, Buck. And there never will be."
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Date: 2022-05-17 04:25 am (UTC)Now Bucky sees it’s been something else all along. Because this? This is what his heart aches for. Bucky feels a little like he’s coming back down to Earth from the moon, as they sag against each other in a sweaty, damp mess, and Bucky aches in places he didn’t know he aches while Steve wrests a little whimper out of him when he pulls back and leaves Bucky deliciously sore and empty. Immediately, Bucky turns on his side so he can wrap his arms around Steve and tangle a leg with his, and just…savoring this between them. For once, there’s no War out there or Captain and Sarge responsibilities, or the worry that someone’ll stumble on ‘em and it’ll be a blue ticket.
“No neighbors or paper thin walls or GIs nearby. Hell, let’s pretend we actually own these digs. You made it big and bought the entire building,” Bucky laughs, warm and soft against Steve’s mouth before he’s quieted with a pleased sound as they kiss in the sweet aftermath like maybe they do got all the time in the world.
They don’t. Some instinct says they don’t, ‘cause he’s gotta go back somehow. But it’s at the back of his mind while Bucky laughs as Steve rolls him as easily as Bucky’d pick up his dates: Bucky settles, a long, lean form over Steve’s, with his elbows braced near Steev’s head as he brushes strands of dirty blond hair back from Steve’s temple and presses his temple to his.
“I’m too much of a coward to say it back then but I do love you. Always have,” Bucky says, pressing a trail of kisses to Steve’s thick shoulder, before snuggling down to curl up along Steve like he’s the best pillow to come out of America, and letting his head rest along Steve’s shoulder. “It’s just, we weren’t big on spilling our guts back then about our feelings. It’s different here.”
Bucky falls silent, thoughtful, tracing aimless circles along the sheen cooling on Steve’s skin. After awhile, Bucky breaks the silence:
“Maybe...maybe I’ll test the waters. Whenever I get back,” Okay, the idea scares Bucky shitless, but still, maybe it’s better to try while he’s still kicking, than never even know. “If you were me, how would you go about it without scaring him off? ‘Cause coming up on him and planting one isn’t gonna do it.”
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Date: 2022-05-20 01:57 am (UTC)"I'm sorry... Are you asking for advice on how to seduce me?"
He giggles, still light from the glow of sex and practically drunk on the fact that Bucky returned his love. It's been a very long time since Steve first got his new body and felt unstoppable in it. That wild, heady insanity is back now though. Indestructible. Blessed. Whole, perhaps. The thoughts and feelings rush around inside him as they often do, but this time they are all uncharacteristically positive.
It won't last but it is nice for the moment.
"Geez, Buck. This might be one of the strangest questions I haveta answer and you have no idea what people in this time feel comfortable asking about in interviews." The first time someone with a camera asked 'Boxers or Briefs', Steve had frozen so completely that Tony needed to step in. "But... Honestly? You might be overthinking it, pal."
He reaches out and strokes the other's hair back. It's not necessary. Bucky's hair is so much shorter now than it is in this time. The contact, however, is desperately needed. Steve keeps stroking against his cheek, slow and tenderly.
"You and I here...there wasn't a lot we needed to say. I think it's because on some level we... We just already know. Won't think about it or do anything. But it's already there. And if you wanna test the waters, I really feel like just... Just you looking at me the way you used to look at dames? Maybe reaching out..." Steve reaches his hand for Bucky's and just holds it. "That'll get my brain working for sure. And if I think you're making a move, well. I can't have you beating me..."
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Date: 2022-05-21 04:16 am (UTC)Except Steve just has to grin like that, and that earns him a gentle punch to the shoulder, before Bucky resumes skimming his knuckles up and down the firm muscles.
“Well… When you gotta put it like that, yeah. I guess so,” Bucky shrugs, face warm. Okay, so it’s a weird question. But Steve’s still Steve, so who better to ask? “It’s not like I can just tip you over and plant one on you. The you back in the War.”
Bucky’s eyes flutter closed for a moment as he presses into the caresses trailing down his cheek, turning his head just so he can catch at Steve’s fingertips with the corner of his lips for a sec. He’d kind of written this kind of thing off after a couple months after shipping out overseas. Some guys went a little wild in town, but Bucky’s interest had mostly dried up when all he could think of was going back into the meat grinder or worrying what Steve was doing without anyone watching his back.
Bucky finds himself grinning over at Steve as his hand settles on his shoulder and he nestles even closer. “I don’t know, pal, I can think of a few doozies the press tried to squeeze past for Captain America.”
Maybe he’s over-thinking it. Still, Bucky looks a little doubtful, but he doesn’t hesitate in tangling his fingers with Steve's and their ankles.
“Sure, sometimes we don’t need to spill our guts on stuff. I just know and so do you. Most of the time,” Bucky says, doubtfully. “I just don’t know what I’d do if you looked at me like I grew a second head. Or worse. It’s easier with you. You’re different in some ways. ” A slow smile creeps back onto Bucky’s face, and he pretends to bat his eyes like some doll on the big screen. It’s not the same when he doesn’t got the big lashes or doe eyes. “So you mean I should come at you like this?”
Maybe he’s covering up on how unsure he is. But,..it couldn't be that easy to get his Steve’s brain turning. Can it?
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Date: 2022-05-25 04:35 pm (UTC)Steve hadn't realized until now that he hasn't felt that way since before Pearl Harbor.
"No. No, Buck." He's still smiling and if he had a mirror it would blow him away how much the genuine happiness changes his face. Steve rolls them over so he can lean over Bucky with one hand holding him up. The other just can't stop petting at his hair and cheek.
"You gotta remember, we went on so many dates. I saw you with those dames and how you just tilted your head and got them to blush and lean in closer. It was like magic when I was younger. And then when I started figuring myself out, it was something I almost was hungry for. And sometimes...sometimes you would. And I would think..."
Steve shakes his head. No use thinking of the past when there was a naked Bucky underneath him and a past version of himself to seduce. Jesus. What had his life become?
"I know your face when you want someone," Steve says. He lets his own gaze heat up as though to prove his point, looking Bucky up and down from the new vantage point. "And maybe it was an act or a role you played...but to me then, it was real. And I know it in the dark. So just. Look at me like you want me. Let me see it. Reach out and..."
His breath studders for a second, throat seizing with an emotion he hadn't realized was welling up. Heartache. Longing. Hunger. Steve remembers how touch-starved he'd been his whole life and how touch-starved he remained up until this very night. It's the best advice to give Bucky in order to get Steve melting into his arms and it also feels like a personal betrayal to just lay it out on the table. Like reading his own diary aloud.
But if he can't trust Bucky with it, there's no one. And indeed, without Bucky, there is no one.
"Just touch me. You have no idea how bad I need it. Just touch me. Doesn't even matter how. That's it. I promise, that's all you need to do in order to have me, 'cause in most every other way, you already do."
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Date: 2022-05-27 03:27 am (UTC)Bucky grins back, and he kicks the sheet off so they can roll, bodies nice and flush together, and his thighs parting so Steve can slot up against him. Bucky’s hands settle on Steve’s trim waist, thumbs rubbing circles along the firm skin. He’s far heavier than any dame Bucky’s rolled with, but honestly? It’s amazing. Really amazing. Steve’s weight makes him feel safer than he has in ages, and that gorgeous grin on Steve’s face?
Bottle it up and save it, if it doesn’t make a guy feel like a million bucks.
Bucky’s eyes drift half-closed as fingers comb through his hair, while Bucky pets along Steve’s flank, while a guilty, smug little shiver goes through him at the thought of Steve watching him. Noticing him. And noticing that little something that was in Bucky that he’d tried to stamp down, that always had him yearning for his best guy.
“And god, did I want you,” Bucky breathes out, almost a whisper and looking the tiniest bit guilty. “Surprised you never called me out or anything. Sometimes it’s hard not to look at you like you’re the sun, even when we got company.”
He reaches up, cupping at Steve’s jaw, before smoothing down along his throat. Fingers splay along Steve’s collarbones, letting him feel the gun calluses and heat.
“I will. When I get back. Maybe take it slow and subtle, but it’s gonna be hard considering I’ve had it bad for you for years.” Bucky doesn’t say the quiet part; that he can’t afford to be too patient anymore if he’s basically got his foot in the grave. His hand drifts back up and he draws Steve’s head down into another kiss. “Thank you. From both of us.”
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Date: 2022-06-01 12:51 am (UTC)"It's bizarre. I am jealous of myself," he says softly. The laugh that comes out of him is half honest and half miserable because he can't really decide if he's happy to have helped them or not. Honestly, he doesn't even know if what he said here will make the jump back to the 40's. He doesn't have any memories of Bucky and him making time on the front lines. Does that mean he's now changed time? Or does that mean that this all is somehow erased? Bucky forgetting it all the minute he goes back?
Steve doesn't even entertain the idea that he doesn't go back. Fate is not that kind to either of them and to hope for it to be different is selfish in a strange, almost perverse way. Steve in the past needs his Bucky. Just like Steve perpetually needs his Bucky, including now when the man is frozen in Wakanda, mind in shambles.
He closes his eyes for a moment and tries not to think about that. Tries not to think about the moment when he reaches for the man beneath him and finds nothing but air. For now he is here. For now, Steve can have this.
"When you get back," he finally says, "tell me to enjoy the moment. Even in the war... there is so much I am going to miss faster than I realize. Both of you. Just. Enjoy what you can."
He smiles a bit and kisses Bucky harder than before.
"But right now...you're mine to enjoy, pal. And I am gonna take my own advice for once."
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