Steve is whimpering the whole time he's working that second finger into Bucky. Half of it is due to what Bucky is doing with his hand but the other half is just losing all control seeing how he's effecting his friend. At least at first. But then he hears what Bucky says and the next whimper comes from the very pit of Steve's soul. It bubbles out of the grief he never lets himself feel and the helpless frustration he's carried all his life because, even with the serum, he is never quite enough.
He can't think about it. He can't let those thoughts rise up because if they do he'll drown in them. He'll drown right here in this bed and God help him, he might not surface in one piece. Let alone what that would do to Bucky.
He moves his hand a bit faster and inexpertly shifts and curls his fingers. Academically he knows what he's supposed to do in this situation but locating the prostate on a helpful internet article diagram is vastly different from real life practice. Still, he's got the idea of it and enough room to trust he's not causing Bucky pain while he tries. In the meantime, he chases after Bucky's mouth the next time it crosses near his own and kisses him hard.
No more of that topic.
"Tell me how you feel," he asks instead, treading onto safer ground. "First time being put through your paces. We can stop anytime or speed it up. You set the pace on this, Buck."
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Date: 2022-05-05 12:12 am (UTC)He can't think about it. He can't let those thoughts rise up because if they do he'll drown in them. He'll drown right here in this bed and God help him, he might not surface in one piece. Let alone what that would do to Bucky.
He moves his hand a bit faster and inexpertly shifts and curls his fingers. Academically he knows what he's supposed to do in this situation but locating the prostate on a helpful internet article diagram is vastly different from real life practice. Still, he's got the idea of it and enough room to trust he's not causing Bucky pain while he tries. In the meantime, he chases after Bucky's mouth the next time it crosses near his own and kisses him hard.
No more of that topic.
"Tell me how you feel," he asks instead, treading onto safer ground. "First time being put through your paces. We can stop anytime or speed it up. You set the pace on this, Buck."